hmmmmm

soooo....where to begin...

I had a xanga for a REAALLLY long time..it still exists..i just dont use it...i need to start using this one though...so i will, haha...

I'm on Spring Break right now, yaaaay!

I went to kentucky last weekend with caro....we had an absolute blast! i wouldnt trade that weekend for anything in the world...that's gunna be one of those crazy weekends i look back on and smile..for multiple reasons, haha... I really don't think that weekend could have been more perfect....

saw seth patrick today at the space and rocket center...hooray for nephews, haha...he's gettin so freaking big...i swear in a year or two he's gunna be taller than me... *sigh* which isnt hard to do

went to see dr adams....talked to him about whats been goin on this semester and how i feel all crazy sometimes....he sent me to quest so they could stab me and test my thyroid and electrolytes and liver...i dunno what that's all about but whatever...

I've been thinking too much lately. I've gotten all these ridiculous thoughts and fears that i've been rationalizing away....i know i'm just being dumb...i'm not used to feeling vulnerable...i'm not used to caring quite so much...i dunno.....

my dumb thoughts have no basis... i just have to keep reminding myself of discussions already had....regardless of what my mind may make of present situations versus past...

have you ever felt so deeply and had so much you wanted to say...but just couldnt? i think this is a first for me...y'all know i don't usually have a problem saying what's on my mind...especially if i write in one of these things...these tend to be very candid for me and yet...i can't do it...i dunno...it's weird...

i've been majorly stressed out lately...having no idea what i want to do with my life...despising the academic aspect of college so thoroughly, worrying about grades, getting a speeding ticket...throw in my stupid insecurities and well...that's tough for anyone right?

i think i just need a nap or something....