bitter.

*sigh* i dont know....i seem to only write in this thing when i'm upset...hopefully that will change....is it so wrong to ask that people be considerate of other peoples feelings? i mean seriously. wtf. it's NOT ok when you KNOW what you're doing upsets someone but you just continue to do it anyway because you know they'll forgive you. i'm too nice. i need to learn to stand up for myself a little more i guess. i just hate confrontation. i hate being mad at people. but it has to happen sometimes right?

and on another aspect of life my mother ACTUALLY said to me today : "well, why don't you get a boyfriend?" gee mom, i dont know let me get out the catalog and choose one. "you run them off and caroline chases them" again, thanks momma, really....i run them off?!?! what is that all about? i know she means well... Kelly said "Don't listen to her. Parents, especially ours say if you have one-it's not the right one, if you don't have one-you should get one, and if you have one and it's good-you should get married and have babies" she has a point. i don't know..maybe i have some inherent flaw in my character or personality that like sends guys running...at least that seems to be how my mother sees it. maybe it's true....because it seems whenever i find one it's fine for a little bit...and then they push me away. i dont know. i just know i'm pissed...and hurt...and depressed....and want it all to go away........

"A human being's made of more than air
With all that bulk, you're bound to see him there

Unless that human bein' next to you
Is unimpressive, undistinguished
You know who. . . "
-Mister Cellophane

"Don't be reckless with other people's hearts,
don't put up with people who are reckless with yours."

"Insanity is knowing that what you're doing is completely idiotic, but still, somehow, you just can't stop it."-Prozac Nation

"Understand that friends come and go,
but for the precious few you should hold on.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle
because the older you get,
the more you need the people you knew when you were young."

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"What makes you think I'm so rich that you can steal my heart and it won't mean a thing?"-Prozac Nation